gunna go get drunk with my bestest friends so tomorrow i can have bigger problems, such as a hangover, rather than worry about my failed attempt at school.

slept practically all day today and then had work, not sure if i’m feeling better or worse. not even sure if i’m feeling going out tomorrow, i hate feeling down. 

why can’t i just feel tired and not feel guilty about it? i don’t have time to be tired anymore. i have a week and two days and i know i won’t have any arms left by the end of it, gunna be so fucked and not in the way i want that to mean.